okay

the last post was slightly 'whatever'
yes i'm trying to avoid using the word 'emo'
coz according to what i read on my sec sch cca mate's blog
emo is a genre of music
emotive hardcore or something along the lines of that
yeps so its to all who read my blog
(which probably amounts to one.... me)
if you, like me, agree that you can't feel a genre of music
then try not to use the word emo too much

yes
we learn new things everyday

bumming is my forte

yeps i love bumming at home
i don't have much friends
because i realize i just don't put much focus in my life on friends
selfish as it may sound my focus is on me
that's the conclusion that i derived after listening to 100.3 in the office whilst typing away my life
living to me consists of 'cleopatra-ing', watching tv and playing either on the computer or ds
friends in my life just seem to slip away after school ends
yes
i'm 19 and i don't have anyone that i find truly comfortable to talk to
but i do pride myself in being comparatively forthright
yes
i have decided that i shall devote more time to reading and writing random things
and stop trying to analyse how people feel about me and then get all guilty abt being an utter bitch
seriously i'm soo heading towards spinsterdom
but i do think that that suits me just fine
being alone
and doing what i feel like doing
though i do want to have kids
so i'd probably adopt
yes
but as i always remind myself (coz no one talks to me all that much)
you never know what will happen in life
i may die tommorow for all you know
its just life
and it's just me trying deperately to find myself
identity crisis
i realise that's why throughout my whole life i have always felt this hollow feeling
(i know it sounds slightly cliche)
i will find myself someday
but meanwhile i'd just focus on earning money and saving most of it too

~cheerios~

i love playing on my ds
games i've actually completed are very sparse though
like 'trace memory', 'pheonix wright', and ...... no more
see that's the problem with me
i just lose interest in stuff really quickly
and i don't finish it properly
ok random... i know
shall go play now
cheerios

tv

been watching quite afew reality shows on chnl 5
american idol, survivor, the contender asia, hell's kitchen
yeps
love tuesdays becoz of csi:miami and bones
but talking abt reality shows
would like to say
FINALLY kristy lee cook is out
my goodness that should have happened eons ago
the only song that i feel that she can sing really well is amazing grace
and i really don't get the whole thing about david archuleta
whatever lar
personally i'm gunning for david cook
and i also like jason castro and brooke white
and for hell's kitchen, i'm glad that heather won
if virginia did i wld have died
yes thats all
and one more thing
what is so cute about james(survivor) ?
okay
then there's bones
its turning out to be really good
and i can actually afford to watch it as i dun have to wake up early for sch
okay i'm blogging crap here
okay
going to watch 'i shouldn't be alive' now
oh yes before i go
do watch 'love you to death'
its nice :) abit too short though
okay the show start alr
cheers :)

mundane life of a working teen

my goodness how time just zooms by
i'm 19 alr
goodness i still feel 13 at heart
though i think my body is 89 alr
now have an admin job
goodness it is like .................
from the day i first started till now
about .... 5 WEEKS
like WHAT ???!!!!
oh mans i still thought like 2-3 weeks
like whatever !!!
i'm rapidly moving towards my death and i still don't realise it
sucks
ok
applied for nus and ntu
father says we can't afford smu
so i didn't bother
now is waiting 'bite-ur-nails' period
really hope i get into one of the u's
or i'd DIE
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
better not have negative thoughts or it might happen
(as illustrated in "The Secret")
so I WILL get a place :)
stay positive :)
:D
D:
okay going mad
am sick today so my brain's a little fried
i even talked to that executive (omg what was i thinking)
saying that the tissue box was cute
though it is very cute, i must justify
like... tsk i shouldn't bother too much about what others think of me
just do my job
slack when i can
chiong when i need to
and bring breakfast bars so that i'll not starve to death
ok :)
HAIZ
shall end here
cheers :)